nothing to write anymore...

Fri, 04 May 2007 06:41:06 GMT

Sat, 16 Dec 2006 06:16:45 GMT

I am fucking crazy!

...Who was I trying to fool...?!?!

Can't stop crying...:'(

Fri, 15 Dec 2006 17:12:19 GMT

I feel like fucking shit today...

I wish I could just crawl into a dark hole and die!

Thu, 14 Dec 2006 09:46:23 GMT

I have to go to my new shrink in about half an hour..
I don’t want to go, though…
I’m scared and nervous as hell..
I don’t want to talk to anyone about shit..it’s too hard and scary and embarassing…
I know it’s his job and he’s used to hearing this shit but…
I dunno…I guess I just don’t want to deal with this shit anymore..:/
I’m tired cause I didn’t get much sleep last night…
I kept tossing and turning around in bed and now I just feel like shit…
Oh…and I also look like shit..lol..
I wonder what he looks like, though…how old he is…
I wonder if we get along cause I’m not sure if I can trust him…if I can trust anyone right now..
I dunno…I think I’m just scared I’ll fuck things up again..
He’s gonna be my third shrink and I just don’t wanna ruin things with him cause…
I hate to admit it but I really need him :/
I know I have to talk to someone, that I have to be honest and shit…
And I’ll start being honest today..
I’ve been thinking all night about what to wear and I was going to wear a longsleeve shirt to hide my cuts and scars and stuff…
But I guess I shouldn’t do that.
I guess he should see what a fucking basket case I am :/
Well..I gotta get ready :/

Sun, 19 Mar 2006 19:13:25 GMT

Just my little
journal for remembering the things I cannot forget

when I forget the things I cannot remember.

Just my little journal
for forgetting

the things I would like to remember when I remember the things I would
like to forget.

...and there ain't no point in the words i write...

nothing to write anymore...

Can't stop crying...:'(